abefrowoman's Xanga

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Wed, 21 May 2008 06:57:22 GMT

..and joy,
which wells-up
within my throat from someplace
near my stomach, (though indefinably deeper)--
comes round again and again in all dif'rent ways
every day
( i say )
yes each of these days,
in making choices to progress some
and to leave some behind - (younger though older youve become);
still weighing it:
my trees my rivers my new morning air/
my hills my families my new morning eyes..

what is to come is to be determined
but til then,i know there is a
melody in that well of gladness
i feel it i know it true i earnestly sift my hearts proper words
(..been honestly missing the pure heaviness of holiness....that golden heavy quiet)

--however it looks,
it will be a Good new morning.

the world is a tangled place to be.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 04:40:10 GMT

"oh world you got nothin on me now......"

lighted winter days. nights for coats.
i am thankful for the people that make me glad
and make me want to praise and learn and venture
and speak languages because, orbis terrarum est pusillus
and love the ones i dont get along with along the way
and make art and make films and build bicycles
i am thankful for provision via dumpster diving
i am thankful i can work and can pay off debt
and that this debt will soon disappear quickly as it came,
leaving room for adventures and moving north
God is good and cares for my every worry as they grow
and boy ive got a mad case of spring fever
the cherry and plum trees are blooming flowers
white pink tiny green
on cold brown branches
new things are coming and i mean it when i say it
ive been saying it and been meaning it
and i still want jubilee

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 07:27:38 GMT

.........good things are happening. train de vie!

Friday, January 11, 2008

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 17:47:22 GMT

i have pants that need a patch mended
two bags of clothing and belt buckles sit in my room
maybe ill sell them to turn a few dollars, for car fuel
last night i dreamt about a motel i saw in kentucky
guitar wont keep tuned
got a new dress
driving south today...ventura..orange county..
daily breaks of silence
tomorrow is my birthday
ill be on a mountain in the mojave desert
with folks i love very much
in the rush of things the past few months,
i forgot why i like to paint
but i remember why i like to write
and there is ink on my hands again

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 22:26:23 GMT

i need to be more careful with what i say.
and what i do.
and where i go.

i need to get back to the root which draws Living Water..
i need to give up some things, that i really dont want to give up.

real good days, just real hard times.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 09:09:43 GMT

update------
...work..sleeping where i can..,a little roaming around..painting..,records....christmas lights & pine-air,..a singer-songwriter moodiness has come..,anxious for days to pass, tho sad to see them go...frost on my car in the morning, family dinners and warm company...mending shirts ..& taking lots of pictures...

------
"december 7
if you stand in a river and throw stones and sticks at the face of a mountain would the mountain fall. it might feel the blows but it doesnt move because its a mountain. and living under the sky there is snow and rainfloods weathering down upon it, during night & during day.

should the mountain give up and landslide to nothing it is not much of a mountain is it."

Monday, November 12, 2007

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 03:15:00 GMT

[warning: vague]

.....ohhh so a gut-feeling long since experienced has returned--from the sea from the street from the spokes from out of nowhere.
unsure of what to do with it all..and anxious about coming days.
but excited! nonetheless.

we shall see where this funny yellow road leads me.....
oh boy.

ps. i hope this day finds my friends well. i am grateful..
(besides--1am is boring without em.)

ps II.

incredible, right? courtesy of winston.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 05:55:56 GMT

"i will make your forehead like the hardest stone, harder than flint. do not be afraid of them or terrified by them, though they are a rebellious house."

"o Lord Almighty, God of Israel, you have revealed this to your servant, saying, 'i will build a house for you.' so your servant has found courage to offer you this prayer. o sovereign Lord,you are God! Your words are trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant."

(unfinished letters and not knowing where i ought to be literally/figuratively.......
really a lot to think pray ask ect.ect. about.

strange how these days i must "make time" to think.
when did that happen.)

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 05:16:06 GMT

i look in to your eyes & see the love that died for me,
look in to your eyes & see the hope that i can be;
a faithful child.
followin close behind,
followin ever-blinded,
to the things that should not move me.
i say unto my soul,
fix your eyes on Jesus,
say unto my soul,
fix your eyes on Jesus,
fix your eyes on Jesus.

--my old friend davey.
its been revolving in my head (& car stereo) the past few days. so good.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 07:21:57 GMT

be Thou my battleshield, sword for my fight,
be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight;
Thou my souls shelter, Thou my high tower,
raise Thou me heavenward, o Power of my power.
riches i heed not, nor mans empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always;
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my treasure Thou art.
(amen).